So, I went to a conference recently.
It was a Christian blogging conference and I have to be honest, I was seriously asking myself what I thought I was doing. Going to a blogging conference when I have written five posts in 18 months? Every time I would try and stress myself out (please tell me I’m not the only one), I would get this peace that only God could provide.
I went and had a blast. Met and got hugs from some awesome ladies in real life from my online world. I was hoping for clarity and direction for this blog and I received it.
God was up to something big from the beginning and everybody there knew it. The air of expectancy and openness to hear from God was tremendous. For me, it was a chipping away of wrong beliefs about others and myself. Each keynote speaker addressed another piece of the puzzle in a way that only God could orchestrate.
Saturday night was a time of worship. As David Walker opened the night describing praise in the Hebrew and to just lift up our hands and, for me, my heart to the heavens. As I stood there with eyes closed and hands upheld, the phrase “You Are Enough” kept going through my head.
For me, that phrase was symbolic. I have lived in a world where I was pretty sure I was NOT enough. I have lived in depression for most of the last three years. God has released me from the actual depression but the chaos that it created is still wreaking havoc on my world. I have not been the wife, mom or friend I would have liked to be. But God has given me enough grace and strength for the job He has given me to do. The job of encouraging other women to walk the healing journey of discovering who GOD says you are.
On an ending note, we each received a necklace in our goodie bag from the conference. What do you think mine said?